When
Kris and I talked about some fun topics to write about, and "are you a morning
person or night owl?" came up out of the pool of ideas, we agreed it would
be a fun thing to think on and write about.
I am
a dyed-in-the-wool Night Owl, always have been ever since I was a kid. Love the
night, I seem to come up with the best stuff then, even if it's not feasible to
do any of the things I come up with during the wee hours, lol. I have always
been the up until 3 a.m. person, and happily. I could stay up working on this,
that or the other thing, or reading and so forth. If it wasn't a noisy project
and likely to wake Harry up, I'd probably bake or cook in those hours too, lol.
That
all changed when Harry started school. Say hello to forced-into-being-a-morning-person!
There's a serious conflict between going to
bed at 3 a.m. and waking up at 5:30 a.m. It just doesn't work - oh sure, in the
short term it's ok - not fabulous, but doable, long term though? Um, no. Not a
good thing. Even with "enough" sleep (which I've yet to find that
magic number of hours - you know, the one where you're supposed to just jump
out bed feeling refreshed and whatnot...) I've done some stupid things in my
morning stupor, that's for sure. So, I now make sure everything is set out and
ready to go the night before to help ease the morning mess-ups. Honestly, some
days it's amazing I leave the house with Harry in the car and not drive to
school without him, lol.
But
getting up at 5:30 a.m. now means I have to have a reasonable bedtime and I
have a hard time with that! It's like my body and brain rebel against the
numbers on the clock. I may be dead tired, falling asleep in my chair, but it
feels wrong to be tired and ready to go bed at 9:30, lol. My Night Owlness
served me well when Harry wasn't in school - the only time for me to get some
"me" time, as in time to work on things I want to - like my photos etc,
was after he went to bed. So, my time started about 9 when all was said and
done and he was asleep for the night (for sure, lol). That's not a lot of time
to accomplish everything you want to, providing you go to bed at 11. 2 measly
hours??? Soooo, up til 3 solved that issue, lol.
Now
though, things are flip-flopped - I have the time (usually) while he's in
school, during the day. I'm still trying to get used to that, as I said it
feels like my brain and body rebel against that I now need to get to bed early.
That it's OKAY to go to bed early, because you have the whole "day"
tomorrow to have your "you" time. But I forget that come night time.
It's a totally weird place to be! I start watching the clock, and counting down
the minutes before I need to go to bed (provided that I didn't fall asleep
while getting Harry to bed and reading the bedtime story, which, happens quite
frequently, lol.), like bedtime's become a sentence of some sort, lol. It's
crazy. I feel like the little kid when they're told it's bedtime, "aw mom,
just a little longer? Pleeeeeeaaaseee??". Only I'm the kid AND the mom,
lol. It's hard to police yourself sometimes!!
But,
there's another side to this as well...there's a part of me who enjoys being up
early and having lots of time - instead of getting up later in the day, like at
9, lol. It's weird, I'm in a weird place! Love being a Night Owl, yet, there's
that draw to Morning Personness... But it's not enough of a draw that it will
make me go to bed early on a non-school night, lol. There's still that "woo
hoo" feeling - I can read late! I can watch movies late! I can work on
photos, late! LOL Yep, I'm still a Night Owl, forced into being a Morning
Person. *sigh*
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